Hmmmm...it's been a long time...

Wow - It's been nearly 8 months since I updated this crazy thing... I had been doing pretty good for a while - then I went on Vacation and the whole thing went to hell...

Soooooo....what's been happening? Well, a lot, I suppose:

The last time I wrote, I was getting ready to go skiing in Utah with John. That was a really great trip. We stayed with Jessica and Hollis in Salt Lake City (actually Park City, but close enough). Skied at The Canyons for two days, Solitude, and Snowbasin. We went up to Bozeman for a couple of days and visited Mike (from Missoula) - Allison and Kevin let us use their passes for two days of skiing at Bridger Bowl ("ski the cold smoke") The snow up in Montana was really bad...it was a really warm winter. On our way back to Utah we stopped in Wyoming and skiied the back side of the Tetons at Grand Targee. That was a scary mountain - it was pretty steep in some places, but I found a nice bowl that I skied most of the day. After that we hit some hot springs in Idaho and headed back to Utah. It was a really great vacation - one I really needed.

So, I was also "seeing" that guy Steve - the Rhode Island boy. Well, the long and short of it is that he really turned out to be a typical Aries... Very controlling and way too high strung for me. I had to get rid of him (but that was quite a while ago already). He was the type of guy that wouldn't take NO for an answer with ANYTHING... I just got sick of feeling like an old man's "pet"... So I'm back to the young ones... I like them more anyway.

I'm with a really sweet guy these days... He's young, and he irritates me sometimes (due to his youth) but he tries so hard to make me happy with him. He's a nice German skinhead guy with some beliefs a little more in line with my own. I like that. He's been living with me literally since I met him, but that's okay...it's a marriage for us. We connected so closely so quickly, and I just love having him around. He's the only guy I've ever been with that has actually made me consider wanting and having children. I stopped my pills, and we're trying. He got pneumonia really bad in the Army, and his temp was so high that he's not sure his little guys are swimming anymore...but we're trying anyway. Miracles happen.

I'm being forced to go to Disney World... Land of the jewish mouse... I hate corporate amerika... I need to buck up and take it for what it's worth. TAKE ONE FOR THE TEAM!!! It's for Alex's 4th birthday, so I have to make the best of it and remember that it's not a vacation for me - it's a vacation for him. I think I'll have all day Friday to find a spa and get a pedicure and massage, and lay around the pool for a bit. Wednesday and Thursday we're spending all day in a couple of parks - the Magic Kingdom and Animal Kingdom. So not only is it bad enough that I have to partake in a corporate nightmare - but I have to go to a glorified zoo too! Jeez.... The saving grace is that Friday night we're going to a "not so scary Halloween party" at the Magic Kingdom - that seems like it will be cool... They close down the magic kingdom and redecorate it all Halloweeny and you get to dress up and go trick or treating in the park. So that'll be neat... I'm going to wear my new Pendragon Sea Queen outfit... I wish I could have gotten the tricorn hat before Faire ended this year - that's going to make the garb totally perfect! Maybe I can come up with something - maybe I'll tie a scarf around my head. I love dressing up! I'm a kid at heart when it comes to stuff like that.

My 33rd birthday was rather uneventful. I took the day off of work the day after (since it was a monday - my bday was on a sunday this year). We just wandered around the city and checked stuff out... It was nice and mellow. The whole MacGregor crew (save Eddie Joe and Jay) got together for Celtic Fest to celebrate mine and Elaine's birthdays. We went out on Rod's dad's sailboat all morning, then went and listened to music and drank at Celtic Fest. We didn't get to see any of the little Caley Dancers, but that's okay. They're so cute with their little curls and dresses jumping all over the place! :)

Mom's doing "ok" these days. She's still losing weight every week. She had a CT scan last week that showed only minimal growth in the tumor, so they're going to keep her on this expiramental thing for another 8 weeks. It's the only thing left, there's nothing else they can do past this. I know she's in a lot of pain because the tumor is rubbing on a rib. She's losing it a little bit too - but that could be the opium poison they have her on for the pain. I hope she's going to be able to handle the heat in Disney next week. I know she's really looking forward to this trip. Dawn said that you can really see the weight loss on her...I haven't seen them in a few weeks - Dawn sees them more frequently - so I know it'll be really aparent to me. I'll never be ready to go through life without a mom...

Well - I could probably ramble on here for a while about everything that's happened in the last 8 months...but why bother.

"Yesterday's history, tomorrow is a mystery. Right now is a gift, that's why they call it the Present."

I've got domesticity to tackle today...Maybe I'll write more later.